Fifth Discourse
Page Three
Pralaap
Crying out loud
Pralaap means 'crying out loud' in longing, in pain! Like the gopis of Vraj did.
Tulsidasji writes that when Sri Ramji left Ayodhya, to proceed towards the
forest, tears of pain flowed from the eyes of the inhabitants of Ayodhya. When they looked at fishes dying in the river, the inhabitants believed
that the fishes were more spiritually advanced, as they were dying due to their
being separated from Sri Ram. while they, the inhabitants continued to live! What did the inhabitants of Ayodhya do then?
Ram daras hit
nem-vrat karan lage nar-nari
Which means that they started to perform certain penances to achieve the Lord
again. The Lord says: "I want to clasp your hand but how do I do that if your
hands are full, with all the deeds that you perform in order to achieve
me?"
If you are a pilgrim of 'Nisaadhanta' then do only 'pralaap' ie cry! But do
not think that on this path , only the pilgrim cries! Even the Lord cries
for you! When Laxmanji fainted in the battlefield, Sri Ram cried out loud! He
sobbed, "Oh Laxman! How am I going to face Sumitraji, your mother if you do
not waken? You wife did not complain even once when you came with me to the
forest, even though Seetaji accompanied me. When 14 years are over and I
return to Ayodhya, and am crowned king, and all my brothers along with their
wives come to me for blessings.......what kind of blessing will I give your wife
Urmila if you do not return with me?". The way Sri Ram sobbed then, He had not ever cried before and did not cry since.
Even Krishna cried so much to Udhav remembering His beloved gopis of Vraj.
Some people cry within themselves, they do not show, but one who feels
helpless cannot help crying out loud when he cannot bear it any longer!
The above is the fifth stage of 'Nisaadhanta'.
Udveg
Restlessness
Udveg is a little different from 'Chinta' ie. worry. Udveg is a kind of restlessness that is the result of worry.
'Udveg' for worldly things is undesirable, but for Spiritual affairs it is
another matter. One can immediately perceive when another person is worried. However in the case
of 'udveg' the mannerisms of the person gives away the state of his mind. He would in all probability be pacing up and down, or he would be repeatedly
asking: "Has any telephone come in yet?" He would sit for a short
while and then resume his pacing again. When mind and body are both in turmoil, then that state is called
'udveg'. Some people break out in fever or start feeling physically weak.
In 'Spiritual udveg' the devotee would feel 'Where is my Lord, when will I meet
Him? He has appeared in so many devotee's life, why not in mine? I just cannot
see my life slipping away. I may have to undertake a re-incarnation to achieve
Him!". The above kind of state is the 6th one and is called 'udveg'
Unmaad
Intoxication
The 7th state of the 'Nisaadhan' pilgrim is 'Unmaad' This state just descends upon the pilgrim.
It is said that when Bharatji was approaching Chitrakoot (the abode of Sri Ram
in the forest), the coterie which came with Bharatji behaved in quite an
intoxicated manner. Sometimes one person's head would fall on another's
shoulder. Bharatji would himself lose control and fall on the ground or on
some other co-traveler. This state is called 'Unmaad' and it is like an intoxication. It is like the
pilgrim has drunk from a certain fountain.
Naam khumaari Nanika chadhi rahe din raat
Which means that Guru Nanak says that other intoxicants will only have effect
for a limited amount of time, but the state of intoxication that is achieved by
taking the Lord's name stays with one constantly, day and night.
Sometimes when you go for a Spiritual pilgrimage, or you sit at the feet of an
enlightened Master, you may experience the above state. In this state you do not care if people criticize, or what they think of you.
But to arrive at this state you will first have to drink from the
Spiritual fountain. From now on, promise that you will not touch alcoholic
beverages. People who
govern our country eat and drink the wrong things. If their character is out
of place, how will our country progress? He is able to bring about a change in society whose own character is stable and
solid. Chaitanya Mahaprabhuji went through this state of intoxication.
How to explain this state? In the village when people go out of control, others
try to bind him, but he cannot be contained. This state is like a kind of
madness. When clouds of rain burst, they just pour unconcerned. They do not care where the
water falls or what it affects. When the pilgrim reaches this state, the Lord just observes. This is what He did
with Sutikshana. The Lord appeared to him after a long time. In the meantime He
looked at him from behind a tree and observed his state. This state Tulsidasji calls "Unmaad'.
Byaadhi
An illness
The next state is 'Byaadhi'. This is a disease that springs in the pilgrim due
to the pain of separation. There is no medicine for it except to look upon the
Lord (darshan). Bharatji was beside himself in grief, when Sri Ram left for the forest. Mother
Kaushalya told Bharat that the guru had prescribed a medicine for his
condition.- that of accepting the kingdom. Bharatji said "This medicine is not right for me, what will cure me, is the
darshan of Sri Ram". There are various types of illnesses. Some illnesses give you an obsession for
material things, whereas on the other side we have 'Bhakti' and this state of
illness comes to the nisaadhan bhakta, who wants no comfort, but the pain of the
above illness.
Jarta ka sanchaar
Non-conscious state
This state is recognized by the fact that a generally conscious person
becomes non- conscious- like. A classic example is when Bharatji spoke so rudely
to his own mother Kaikeyi for having sent Sri Ram to the forest. At this point
Bharatji was not conscious of what he was saying.
Moh magan gati nahin bideha ki
Mahima Siya Raghuvar saneh ki
The state of Maharaj Janak and the relationship of Sri Ram and Seetaji is that
of love and not that of attachment. Another important example of this state is that of Ahilyaji:- She was not going
to turn conscious unless and until she was touched by the very feet of Sri Ram.
In this state one loses touch with what is right and what is wrong.
Asahaaya prem
Unbearable love
This is the final state of the Nisaadhan pilgrim, when you feel that your
love is unbearable.
When Sri Ram saw this state of love of Bharatji, then even Sri Ram was beside
Himself.
Tan man vachan umag anuraaga
Dheer dhurandhar dheeraj tyaaga
In this state your heart breaks with the pain that this type of unbearable love
brings.
Torat gyaan viraag karaare
In this state even your Gyan (knowledge) and Vairaagya (renunciation) take leave
of you. In this state the Lord cries out, "Stop your love or I shall not be able
to function, I have to make the sun and moon appear on time, and with your type
of love I cannot concentrate". Have you ever heard of anyone breaking open a pillar and coming out of it? Well
it happened in the case of Prahlaad. The Lord took the form of half-man and
half-beast to protect His devotee. The Lord broke his own law to come to the
rescue of his devotee whose heart throbbed with limitless faith and unbearable
love.
See, my brothers and sisters, I am tackling this topic very carefully, so do not
misunderstand. Do not let go of the disciplines that you follow, but definitely do drop the ego
that arises out of you believing how great you are, since you are undergoing
this or that penance because of your love for the Lord.
If any point that I have discussed finds a way to your heart, then become like a
stick in the Lord's temple! Say to Him, "Oh Lord, do what you will with me!
Leave me where I am, pick me up, throw me, hold me, do what You want. I am
here!" Now that you have come to the door-step of Sri Vallabh, tell him:
Aapke darbaar mein ham aa gaye
Phool shradha ke chadhaane aa gaye
Lok ninda ki koyee parva nahin
Aapke didaar ko ham aa gaye
Which means:
I have come to Your door-step
Brought flowers of faith to surrender at your
feet
I do not worry about the world and its opinion
I only seek to have a glimpse of You
So these are the 10 states of Nisaadhanta which I have humbly placed before
you according to my own understanding and experience. Ask the Lord, "Grant me at least one state, so that I turn impatient to
achieve, to reach!"
I congratulate each one of you on the birthday of Shrimad Vallabh Mahaprabhuji.
Before we rise let us sing with love:
Sri Vallabh Vithal Giridhaari
Yamunaji ki Balihaari.........
Jai jai Sri Raadhe.......
